I can't get this monster out of my mind....

I was reading "Slouching Towards Bethleham" today by Joan Didion, who is the best journalistic voice ever, I love her style, spare and elegant, yet so richly descriptive. She captures things just as they are, beautiful. Oddly enough this made me think about movies, well maybe not so oddly as the story I was reading was about Hollywood and how they used to refer to the industry as a monster, and that Didion said at the time, this was the sixties that this was no longer the case, I wonder what she would say now? God ramble ramble....anyway it made me think about the fact that to make movies was once my dream, that it is a dream that has remained in the back of my head for a very long time and now it has arrived again, beckoning its fingers and saying...you know you want to..... and so I'm going to, I am going to make a short film again, I am not 100% certain what it is totally about, but I have a fair idea.

Sometimes it takes a while to realise what you really want out of life...can I stop being such a late bloomer! Back when I started to experiment with making movies, I had such a rigid set of influences, Lynch, Caligari and lot of other mooney nonsense, well not nonsense really, but I am certain if I had met myself I would have laughed and thought get a life, now I feel free of any influences and ready to start creating again....I guess I will make some sort of update here soon.......

People can be so rude....

The other day I started to type up a rant about how people are so rude on the internet, how people think they can get away with all sorts of appalling behaviour that they would never dream of attempting if they were face to face with someone, it reminds me of my job where I have to spend about 4 hours each day listening to people talk about how poor they are and how the recession is making things so difficult, and of course for the most part I can empathise with that, but when a person starts shouting at you and swearing at you and being abusive, well thats where I draw the line.

Anyway I had typed this big rant about how people in particular absolute moronic twits, sub mentals the most of them at the message boards at www.aintitcool.com are so offensive, one time there was an interview with Gillian Anderson of the X files and all these no doubt spotty illiterate littlew twits where saying "Love to bang her" "Love to r$%# her" WTF? I mean seriously, you want to do what?

It was enough to make me feel sick, then I realised the other day that all the time people where referring to trolls on the net, it was about people like that, who post offensive nonsense and then try and provoke a fight. Ugh and I fell for it....well I didnt reply at the very least, but they pissed me off with their mysognistic nonsense....people can be so brainless....well thats all....

And also bugger it....Disintegration was supposed to be out instores in NZ today but of course being the arse end of the world, its delayed a week...fuck knows why!